11/23/25

ok hi guys my name is rika this is my first blog post and im here to talk about myself a little bit.

i dont have a ton going on in my life right now but i have a ton of things lined up to start going on really soon here so im gonna talk about that rq

MY BAND!!!!!!!

so im in a band right its called "knotted breath" we make like emo adjacent metalcore type of stuff, think saosin, circa survive, her words kill, from first to last yknow stuff like that. i do vocals for this and write the songs, and im very excited to share what ive been working on for the past like 6 months. A friend of mine is currently recording a demo for one of our songs (i dont have the setup to do it myself rn) and shes goated producer so im sure itll sound great. we r currently looking for a bassist at the moment which shouldnt be too tough. any bumbling idiot that can play root notes will work. we dont need anything complicated. my guitarist/bestie knows like everyone in the scene so im sure she will comb the files in her mind for someone who is both fun to be around and can show up on time consistently. thats the hardest part about being in a band. writing songs is easy booking shows is easy getting everyone to practice is impossible. but hopefully by next year we will be actually practicing and playing shows and getting everything together properly and awesomely
anyway thats whats going on with me musically lately. now onto the other stuff

DIGITAL MINIMALISM!!!!!!!

ok so i speak about this in my manifesto which is on my home page but here im gonna go more into depth.
so in the past i had a medium social media presence, multiple actually. i guess if we go in order i had 40k on youtube doing storytime animation in like 2019. i archived the channel bc some of my friends i made by doing that became weird and fame got to them, to this day i dont rly tell irls about that, just that i was friends with some of the semi-known storytime animators at the time. not like jayden or odd1sout but like yk some of the channels with like 200k max subs. then in 2021 i got on tiktok and started posting my face on the internet for the first time ever. it was then that i realized im not ugly and in fact im pretty attractive. i always hated when people would be like nooooo im so uglyyyyyyyy and then be like very conventionally attractive. that always bugged me. so like i have to be honest here and say that i understand that by conventional standards i am an attractive person. and thats all tiktok rly cared about back then so over the course of like 6 months i gained 80k and then it kind of plateaued there for a bit and i slowly got up to like 140k over the next year. then i got into a relationship with someone who NEVER ASKED ME TO STOP POSTING but i did anyway bc all the people in my comments made her feel like it would be so easy to lose me. i didnt want her to feel like that so i got off. then we broke up so i got back on and i had lost like 50k followers over the 2 years it had been since i posted so i was like alright ill just post casually now. i got back up to 100k before realizing wow i did not fucking miss this at all. so i deactivated the account entirely and deleted tiktok off my phone. same w my other socials, i only kept insta to talk to a girl i was talking to for a little bit but she started fucking her ex and posting the videos on the internet as if i wouldnt find out somehow like hey dumbass your twitter is linked in your tiktok bio just cuz i dont use tiktok doesnt mean i dont go look at ur posts every so often COME ON!!!!!!! so then i dropped her and deleted insta entirely. its been like months and months since then and she still contacts me to this day. oh thats another thing that was scary about socials is that i had like actual stalkers. someone came to my house it was weird. esp bc i lived in a trailer park at the time. not a fun experience. and like every friend id make would be already following me, not like a fan or anything i just shitposted u cant rly have fans doing that but like it was weird having that level of motion and 140k is not even that much. imagine if i had like a million how much worse that wouldve been. i think one day ill likely return to social media in some regard just to create content not to actually use the apps because content creation as scary as its been for me in the past is a passion of mine and a dream ive had since i was a kid. i just wish it was still like how it was when i was a kid yknow? the genuine authenticity that came from old youtube is something that ill always strive for. i see a different version of that now in creators like anthpo and eddy burback. anthpo is genuinely such an impressive person to me and i strive to make content on the scale that he does. man is so creative ANYWAY!!!!!!!
i got so off topic but those r the reasons i got off social media entirely for the most part. after i got rid of them i realized how much better i was feeling and how my mental state had improved and just how nice it was to be going outside and enjoying life and the feeling of genuine real actual boredom and learning to be okay with it and even enjoy it at times. the feeling of just sitting there doing nothing in my room gives me so much time to think of ideas for all of my passions and its led to me being about (if my calculations are correct) a bajillion times more efficient in everything i do. so i thought to myself "it really is that damn phone" and decided it was time to entirely decentralize my life around my phone.
i had gotten rid of the main problem, social media, but im still on my phone all the time. be it youtube, texting, writing, or whatever. i started thinking and realized my phone is completely useless. my phone is 800$ and all i use it for is call, text, notes, and youtube. i own 2 PCs, a chrome book, notebooks, a watch, and just fucking everything else that my phone is used to replace why dont i use these items instead???????? so the first thing i did was i dug up my old 3dsxl and modded it and now its fucking awesome. ill do a post touring my 3ds setup some time soon. but anyway i started working towards replacing every function of my stupid dumb smart phone and now all i have left to do is get a beautiful sexy kyocera 902kc to replace my call and text function. i was gonna get just a random normal ass flip phone but then i was doing research on r/dumbphones and i saw the docomo sh-01j and was introduced to the wonderful world of keitai. i bought one before realizing it doesnt fuckin work in america. it can connect to wifi and run on my phones hotspot but in order to make calls it would have to be through like discord or something and same with text. i want something that is functional on its own so i did some research and then boom kyocera 902kc now ur up to speed welcome to the present. i only spent about 60 big greens on my sh-01j so im not too distraught about it but i gained a lot of info on keitai through my mistake. i learned how they fucntion, how to sideload apk, how to customize it and just make it all work how i want i to. now when i get the right phone it wont be such a hassle to get working.
so my current financial goal is like 150$ to spend on a 902kc which ill probably just do when i get paid next week. ive been putting it off cuz i have other expenses but thats all good now.

starting a youtube channel

so ive been working on some stuff lately and i have a lot of ideas about things to do. i think ill likely have some videos showcasing my digital minimalist lifestyle but that wont ever be the focus of the channel. the focus will be about going out and living life in the real world and getting off my freaking stupid dumb smart phone. my hope is that people will see me having fun on zero budget and be inspired to go do the same thing themselves. next month me and the previously mentioned guitarist are going to san francisco so i might vlog that and use that as like a test to see how content creation ready i am, and to test out different editing styles to see what direction i wanna take the channel in in that regard. i dont have a TON to say about this other than the fact that im very excited. 2026 is going to be a great year for me. i have so much i want to do and for once i actually have plans and motivation. normally i just make a list of things i wanna do and then never do them but with the support of everyone around me i feel like i can actually do it. and i will. one thing ive learned this past year is that if i just take the first steps i can figure out the rest later. so i plan to really do that next year

anyway thanks for reading will update yall soon enough bye bye!!!!!!!!